There are so many things that happen in an instant.
Friday March 19, 2004 at 8am my life changed.
My grandpa died. He died of lung cancer at age 76.
A good life for most, but for my grandpa... He died to soon.
It was so sudden; yet, so expected.
There are things I will always regret.
I will regret my miss opportunities and my not having said good-bye,
however, he heard me say I love you. I heard his whisper of a voice repeat it.
I can live off of that memory forever!
My grandpa was (first time I have written about my grandpa in past tense)a wonderful man.
He did not hate anyone. He accept many people/things in life.
He wasn't the most PC person.
He was simply a Midwestern FARMER.
I write this not for you reading to know what happened, but for me.
For HIM! I know he will never read this, but I know he knows my heart
and this IS my HEART.
We did share words of love often. It was more a chuckle at my political trash talk and my belching which lead
then to pity for the guys who had to listen to that.
No matter how many things went unsaid I know he felt them
I know he was and is proud of me.
I am proud of him.
I love him and
I MISS HIM.
Every day I wake up thinking I am dreaming.
But, someday I will be back with him and happy
because I am miserable without him!
love
